SUICIDE NOTE (PARTS I & II)

PART I

Cheap cocaine, a dry inhale, the pills that kill and take the pain away
Diet of life, shelter without, the face that cannot see inside yours and mine

When I'm hiding, when I need it,
it lets me breathe,
for our handle on this life, I don't believe
this time

Would you look at me now?
Can you tell I'm a man?
With these scars on my wrists
To prove I'll try again
Try to die again, try to live through this night
Try to die again
Forever fooling, free and using,sliding down the slide that breaks a will
Mothers angel, getting smarter, how smart are you to regress unfulfilled?
It's a damn shame, but who's to blame?

PART II 

 

Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth
No pretension, execution, live and learn
Rape and turn
 

Fret not family, nor pre-judged army
This is for me, and me only, cowards only
Try it

Don't you try to die, like me
It's livid and it's lies and makes graves
 

It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a
Rotting life
I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off,
Fuck you all

 

Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me
For weakness is a magnet watch me do it
Graves descending down
 

Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it
Doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice
When a mind's made up to go ahead and die?
What's done is done and gone, so why cry?